I'm going to see if I can find someone to talk to for free because I am currently broke, but I will try to get some help. I'm in a really dark place right now, but maybe, just maybe, I can pull through. Thanks TIG, you guys are awesome and have always been here, I've gotten through a lot of problems by coming to this thread and hopefully ill get through this one too.
I don't know exactly how the situation is where you are, but there may be some mental health charities which can help with counselling. Sometimes these charities are tiny and local though. Your doctor or google may be able to help more.
(I will contradict Danrul and say get it seen to NOW, or it can bite you in the arse when you're older. If you have to take/do whatever to push stuff away, trying antidepressants may help with the annoying tiny circular thoughts while you deal with the big proper issues which are depressing you.)