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[Castle]

long story short ive been having chronic pain and sickness the past three months and today i saw a specialist who has no idea whats causing it ive done three seperate lab tests involving blood work im scheduled for an ultrasound and an endoscopy and i just broke up with my girlfriend of six months im a volatile fucking ball of feelings fucking fuck fuck

[thatshelby]

i'd like to say i know how that feels, but i don't. hope everything turns out OK

[Kramlack]

@Castle: I'm a firm believer that doctors don't know shit unless you spell it out for them. My mother was having a fairly constant stomach issue causing sweating/chills, nausea and diarrhea (usually about once a month), for something like 8 years. She'd seen multiple doctors and had various diagnoses, and eventually, one time when it got really bad and we took her to the hospital again, a man in the waiting room commented that it looked like she had appendicitis (from a previous experience). The doctors decided to check her out for that and sure enough, her appendix had burst.

As for the girlfriend thing, I don't know what to say other than, that sucks.

[Nix]

appendicitis for 8 years? Is that even possible?

[Castle]

no you would die from an infection if your appendix had burst

and it doesn't take too long for it to burst from the first pain

but

yeah I know what you mean

I've been tested for plenty of things, and a lot of serious diseases have been ruled out. there's a really strong chance it's mainly psychosomatic. like. stress ulcers. from being so depressed and bottling it up literally all the time. I used to freak out every once in a while now I just.. let everything pass. and I guess it's causing my body to kill itself.

also breakups are really hard, especially in college and especially when you really have no idea if its a good thing and both parties have no closure and are sad.

[Ashkin]

I wonder if you can hire out soundproof rooms.

[Castle]

sometimes I just go around at night and uproot for sale signs

[Kramlack]

I should have made it clear, the appendix had apparently burst recently, as in probably the night before. Not sure what to say about the previous 8 years, but I assume it was because of inflammation of said appendix.

[Tumetsu]

Yeah sometimes appendix can get infection which capsules it. This isn't acute situation and if noticed is tend with antibiotics and surgery is done later. Sometimes appendix will progress very slowly. Some people have said that they had to suffer from occasional pains from it until  finally it was bad enough to warrant surgery.

[Nix]

the appendix is a pretty disgusting organ, btw, if you don't know what it actually is. As far as organs go.

[Tumetsu]

Well, pretty much any organ is ugly. And appendix reminds me that lately I have had some weird pains and feelings on my right side & belly. I saw doctor and he said it was probably some kind of tensions on my muscles where my right leg connects to body. I still fear it is something to do with my intestines though 

[Nix]

Not just ugly, but gross. It's a sanctuary for poopy bacteria. That's why it's so bad if it bursts.

[keo]

I need some advice
I've been thinking recently of a friend who recently passed away
I told him if I'm ever home, since we live a state from eachother I'd bike up to visit him
Thought I'd keep that promise

I don't know any friends who can relate right now to death, so I'm asking tigs.  I'm wondering if I should connect with his family, I've been told it might be nice to let them know what a sweet a boy I thought he was.  But I think I'll just end up reminding them while they try to get over it, but then again I kind of believe death isn't something you can get over and whatever the meeting with them is, that it would be maybe a momentary maybe necessary pain to go through together... maybe I don't know for sure that's why I'm asking.  I also stumbled across his girlfriend's page on facebook, I also don't know if I want to connect with her either, I can imagine how hard it is for her.

I'm just finding death especially of someone young and close, is just something you don't get over.  Anything and everything reminds me of him, the things we liked to do, seeing his clones almost every other day, conversations we've had, his voice echoing, the tiniest details that I ignored I can pick out, and describe him like nobody else I know.

I'm okay with that being there, it's still painful but it doesn't prevent me from moving on though it did for a bit.  Knowing what it's like for me, I'd like to do anything for those closest to him.  I'm not sure what that is or if that's necessary.

[thatshelby]

that must be really hard to deal with. hugs

[keo]

hug hug hug hug hug it out