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[s0]

the fuck is going on in this thread? 

get back on topic please

[PowRTocH]

hugs to all the communists offended by this inanity and prejudice

[gimymblert]

Scandinavia that communist haven

[Geti]

As I alluded, this is hardly relevant and productive and it'd be nice if mods could split the offtopic discussion elsewhere.

[Sik]

For the sake of bringing this back on-topic, I'm willing to offer a hug to anybody who wants one.

（っ・・）っ

[JashLaviu]

For the sake of bringing this back on-topic, I'm willing to offer a hug to anybody who wants one.

（っ・・）っ

You don't know me, I don't know you, but thanks for the hug, I really need it.

[eyeliner]

Congrats on the kid, eyeliner; glad to hear your life is looking up.

Thanks, man.
She's my best work yet. Hope to repeat it soon.

[Praying Mantis]

Mounty Oum, the guy behind RWBY and Red Vs Blue, has passed away.

Really sad for anyone who watches or is involved in Rooster Teeth stuff, and very unexpected.

[cynicalsandel]

i hate getting older

[rj]

tired and broke but weirdly happy otherwise. paying bills is like a giant monolith above my head. i keep managing to climb it but it gets harder and closer to the brink each time

so that's a fun BLAST

other than that: i have no real access to a tablet, which means no animation for a while, so that's shit

[cynicalsandel]

Just started getting back into the habit of practicing art again, and now the stupid painful wrist problems that come with it are back.

[Geoff Moore]

Yay hugs! Also what the frick is this thing? 

[Geti]

My brother severed his thumb yesterday. I feel quite helpless being overseas from the whole thing. I think I'll go and visit asap.

Just started getting back into the habit of practicing art again, and now the stupid painful wrist problems that come with it are back.

That sucks, be sure to take regular rests and see a doctor if it persists, wrist injuries can stay with you for life.

[JWK5]

So I have nerve damage as a result of the spinal surgery (c5 and c6 fusion), chronic costocondritis which is an inflammatory conditon that causes swelling between the cartilage that holds the two rib sections together and mimics a heart attack during flareups, and post-concussion syndrome which has caused some pretty drastic memory loss. The net result is that virtually everything results in confusion, pain, and irritability.

I should be at the point where I have a nervous breakdown and give up on life, but oddly it has triggered my relentless stubbornness. I am exhausted but constantly pushing forward. I feel less unsettetled and upset about the troubles it causes me and more so for how it is affected what I can do for others. Everything feels like a struggle, even the simplest of tasks, and I feel like I am failing the people I love and care about. It's not like I am sitting on my ass and doing nothing, it is just that I am moving much more sluggishly and much more labored. I feel like I should be doing more, and I try to, but it drains me so bad that I just burn out.

I am having a hard time accepting that this is who I am now even though I know this is not who I will always be. It's a very disappointing and disheartening feeling. Despite all this I refuse to let myself fall into despair. Sorry if I am whining, I just needed to get it off my chest.

Regardless of anything, if there is a drop of strength left in my body I will put it to use. I refuse to be broken.

[s0]

I feel like I am failing the people I love and care about. It's not like I am sitting on my ass and doing nothing, it is just that I am moving much more sluggishly and much more labored. I feel like I should be doing more, and I try to, but it drains me so bad that I just burn out.

you're not failing anyone! i know what it's like to feel useless but your condition isn't your fault and im sure the people you care about are understanding. don't be so hard on yourself and don't stress yourself out too much.

either way, hang in there dude 

[MeshGearFox]

HUMAN HANDS

[JWK5]

I feel like I am failing the people I love and care about. It's not like I am sitting on my ass and doing nothing, it is just that I am moving much more sluggishly and much more labored. I feel like I should be doing more, and I try to, but it drains me so bad that I just burn out.

you're not failing anyone! i know what it's like to feel useless but your condition isn't your fault and im sure the people you care about are understanding. don't be so hard on yourself and don't stress yourself out too much.

either way, hang in there dude 

Thanks, I appreciate it!

I think the hardest part is that, possibly due to the bipolar/BPD, I am generally very hyperactive and my system is going a million miles an hour. I am getting shit done all day long. With everything that's happened it has slowed me down so much, I don't even feel like "me" at the moment. I am being proactive about it, I've done the research and I've been making use of any means that help improve the conditions but even still I am not seeing the progress I'd like. I feel like I am floating in purgatory. I don't mean to be hard on myself but it is very frustrating.

Regardless, I'll hang in there. I'm down but not out.

[rj]

in a pretty low depressive episode right now and i feel basically worthless as hell. worst is that things are amazing right now. everything is fantastic, my life is going pretty ok right now, i landed three new good contracts recently and my girlfriend got a steady job and we're okay and i made a breakthrough in my comic and my game is coming long

but i just feel like it's all stupid and worthless, even though i can rationally recognize that everything is good. so that's where i am. i'll get over it but it sucks chunks in the meantime, especially because it's making me lose sleep. so that's gross

[Impmaster]

Why do you feel worthless? Man, only you get to decide what's of value in your life and if all the things that are important to you are progressing, then just relax and look at your accomplishments.


In my life, I just found out that a class mate of mine died of a heart attack in her sleep, which is shocking, cause she seemed fairly healthy. I didn't know her well, but it's a little terrifying to know that people around me are dying, and that I'm going to die as well someday. Just... remember to live every life to the fullest, guys. You only live once. YOLO.

[rj]

Why do you feel worthless?

because my brain has a chemical disorder

edit: but thank you nonetheless. i don't mean to come off as bitey or angry i appreciate it