I'm just wanker ... mother*loving* wanker.
I'm 16 old. When I was really young my father drink a lot, then from 6 to now my mother drink ( sometimes father too ... ) and I do my best but ... I just can't, can't do anything what could help or something. Now my father hit the walls argumenting with mum (I hear that)and mother is crying ... 15 minuts ago we were eating the supper ( parents was drunk ... ) and they started name-calling each other and arguments ... and all that shit. I just standed and take father up ( he is smaller than me, but stronger) and telled him that he should sorry mother, then I told mother to too sorry father and take them to hug eachother, but that didn't work.
Now father yell at mother and I just sit in my room and listen music... It's not the first time, but today i just 'cracked' in myself ... and I just can stand with that.
Wanker. Piece of shiet.
I just should left that all, vodka + random pills are nice alternative way
Don't let yourself be dragged down by your environment, you are still young and don't have to end up violent or unhappy like your family. Rather than getting into drugs or alcohol work diligently at increasing your skills and health, then in a few short years you will be a heroic man, one with a strong character who has come out of harsh situations stronger than before.
You might not be able to change how your family act, but that doesn't mean you are useless, it means you are trying to change the wrong people, you can change yourself, and go against the odds. Don't become bitter or resentful of your family, try to show them there is hope in life through who you become.
Some people play life on hard mode, don't give up
3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.