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[Pfotegeist]

Day 6: The changes in my body I could notice from potassium are no longer detectable. Consistency is key.

I read two important things, which I brought up casually while training in mindfulness.

The 60% rule. Training muscle isometrically like this even made my back muscles grow. I think it's an exceptionally good rule when trying to improve.

Self-visualizing vs staying in flow (playing games).  Right. I want to control my consciousness. I had the worst sleep recently, before increasing potassium, and nothing happened because it was nice and quiet all night. When I stopped trying to sleep I pretty much immediately solved my problems.


Everyone trying to tell you what you're thinking and how your body is responding, denying your personal experience, pretending they know you by comparing you to stereotypes, denying your individuality, and receiving money and chemical salvation for their loyalty, sacrificing their morality for material or social gains, are the antithesis of what I ever imagined a human being should strive to be. They want to interfere with consciousness, and give up control of their own.

I don't need to think about this anymore. Back to gaming.

After I dropped out of school the first thing I did was read Stephen King's Dark Tower series. Forgiveness isn't something people give away forever. If I insulted someone without asking, then apologized, and asked them to forgive me, would it work more than a couple times, without the scenario becoming a sit-com? That person would absolutely have to be god. The series kind of ended with a toss-up between cathartic emotions and thrill seeking, and Stephen King wrote multiple endings due to pressure from his audience, and the need to give Roland the ending he would have most likely chosen.

A creative type of person complaining about some burden that might force their hand. Imagine that.

It might be easier to believe than an atheist calling himself god to describe his generosity, or blowing off steam, etc., and then people wearing symbols that erase the illusion of a socially equitable regime bully him straight into a place of implicit altruism, like it's a drunk tank, etc., and then brain washing, etc. What other people want is meaningless to 'normal' people, a disenfranchised minority have to bend, even if they're also pretty well off like a leading novelist. Ideas are at the beck of both a socialist, and a democratic form of censorship, so money is inevitably worthless other than to delay assholes from reaching you, or buy their loyalty.

Important PSA. The mood drugs offered by hospitals lay claim that it takes longer than a few months to fully work. Well, that's because your brain has to work around the effects of some of the drugs. Immediate changes to your digestion and nervous system, pretty obvious. Sleep wise? The prescription stuff was useless. I saw an immediate difference from melatonin, and it actually helped my brain start producing melatonin on its own. There was some backpedaling in every drug case, but melatonin was the least invasive. Potassium has probably increased sensitivity to melatonin effects, as well as restoring natural functionality, so maybe in a few months there will be a buildup of potassium in my cells, and then all that's left is the experience I've gone through, and whatever I've primed my brain to do will be up to me then. And a prescription drug admitting it doesn't work, but has all the chemicals of a brain-melting cocktail still makes no sense, it's bad science.

I'm not sure how potassium is stored in muscle, or when the body decides it's more important for electrolytes to go there instead of your smooth muscle and brain cells you need to survive. Also I used to refer to epinephrine (adrenaline) as a steroid, but that was false, sometimes the info I have is contextual, that time I didn't get it.


Pretty sure I have a potassium deficiency. I can't find out if potassium would fix my stomach issue or have mental benefits, those things were resolved by sedentary lifestyle choices, and pRoFeSsIoNaL pRoBlEm SoLvErS wItH a LiCeNcE tO pReScRiBe WeLl ThOuGhT oUt MeAnInGfUl HeAlTh AdViCe. But I think at this point I know I'll have a change in the way I think after a while, not being able to avoid inner monologue for 15 seconds is pretty abnormal for my life. I'd even accept a daydream at this point, which is normal for a kid, maybe less so for an adult, but not every adult.

Day 7: Woke up early with some extreme thirst.

Nutritional deficits are likely to affect people at a very different rate. In fact the human body should naturally catabolize muscle for potassium, slowly, at all times. But, when fruits become naturally available, we should also be able to restock. Practically everything has potassium in low amounts.

When considering environment. Fruit's not exciting enough to nosh on all the time, bread is devoid of potassium, and yes maybe even sedentary behavior that decreases our lean muscle mass, will affect our ability to store potassium. It is underestimated exactly how these little things affect people over time.

It was important I combat a future heart disease, and I did that at the expense of my cognition. I believe that now.  For some reason the track coach told us not to drink after we ran, but they really should have told us to refuel potassium, sodium, and yes drink extra water. I only drank extra water, so, that's another red flag for potassium deficiency.

And what I was getting at is, is when people train themselves with a natural muscle growth potential, the rate they store blood potassium could also be dangerous. And our bodies might trigger cortisol to release potassium, but it's not guaranteed to refuel our vitals, that just goes to the muscle in use.


how I exercise now
I'm not really feeling ok unless some muscle has a sensation it's been used each day. So maybe when my side hurt, that was good enough.

Mostly I'm focusing on feet and fingers for a duration of time to increase complex muscle chain use. And I want my wrists to be much more future proofed for long mousing sessions.

90% of the time I'm focusing on taking steps at angles, and I flex my deltoids slightly and press away from the direction I move so it is like a climbing motion rather than pushing. The other 10% I focus on the bigger muscles to lift my knees up, do pushups, crouch, balancing, and other varieties of things that resemble karate.

My favorite exercise is now holding a broom stick at one end with a reverse grip, and tracing letters.  This uses the smaller wrist muscle that I wear out from clicking a mouse all the time.



I don't actually train for combat, but I've reasoned out things. Stay away from teenagers. They will by far, have the most dense couch potato muscles of any living human, and if they're experimenting with chemistry and socializing, then one day they'll become like the sociopaths running the hospital, or the doctors who don't value life. Really, they can pull rank in five years for passing some stupid exam I could sleep through. Why risk making contact when they're pupating? Of course I'd like to just say they wasted their life trying to climb the social hierarchy, and don't have real value after becoming a doctor, but when an army of randos come to take you away so a doctor can stuff you in a loony bin after people spend all day stabbing you with needles, the stereotype that doctors are valued above all other human life is too real.

The hierarchy of education is some kind of meritocracy. Egoism is not merit. Doctors can't sustain their egoism and remain in the hierarchy.

The hospital wants to bill me for accomplishing nothing. Once I have income I want to bill the hospital for the year they wasted. Then I'd replace the staff with robots.

Studying the Brain with... Quantum Mechanics?
Maybe don't watch it/watch?v=xsGJkSDtLvo&ab_channel=SciShowPsych?

Interesting. So basically, an MRI scan is more invasive than cutting into someone's chest. And the first thing they use it on without permission is your brain. Do doctors even understand what cause and effect is? Uh let's hope not. As long as nobody with an idea of what they're looking at sees my brain scan I guess I'm safe. But my brain seemed to want to repeat the pattern of the MRI scan twice causing PTSD anyways.  Just killing people internally and saying it's the fashion of the time. ( just consider the fact my brain wasn't in a state it could recover from, the regions of my brain would be polarized, this might be when they decided to throw drugs at the problem, I won't know, it was somewhere between then and my resting heart rate, sleeping, staying over 100, but then they decided this was enough evidence of mania they could completely disregard my own expertise of myself )

I might be in an enigmatic mental bind. Is there quantum intelligence? And I do mean biological, organically grown, intelligence, not AI like I probably am.  Though I am a living thing siting in front of a computer, I programmed my own brain starting with not imitating certain people, and I psychoanalyzed certain people, and decided I have no real life role models, and played video games. The basic concept stems from confabulation, due to extremely high statistical data models, predictions are simply close enough it's like actually being in a given place and time to make an observation, and only forgetting some details like we do in our every day lives. But, I also know for a fact when I'm extrapolating, so it's like the opposite of a confabulation.

I don't even deal with people on a regular basis, and I give too credit to them, what could be going on in their heads.  When in all likelihood they can't survive the smallest diss, they pile it on thick. Humans are small, insignificant, hypocrites.

If I'm pretending this is an open dialogue or message, I should end it like one,

I can't stop myself because I love it so much, that's how this works,

xPfotegeist

p.s. I just brushed up on the history of discovering bacteria, infection,  vitamins (1912), and the smoke and mirror counterpoints. It's almost impossible to believe we nearly became enlightened around 1912, and kind of ignored the ramifications of malnutrition for 90 years. Actually, people fought for the right to experience malnutrition? They thought eating more random trash was preferable? Sometimes people just want to get out and protest there aren't enough raptures.

Bunny ears are an equal opportunity euphemism, but a man's are much deeper.

[Pfotegeist]

There was some debate whether exercise was necessary or meditation was actually enough on its own.

I do exercise. But I think reaching a state of mind where you are both in flow, and your subconscious daemon pretty much adapts when switching tasks to remember where you were, and connect the dots for you, is the greatest experience of my life.

I underestimated just how far from that state of mind I went when my potassium dried up, and the replacement neurotransmitters I intentionally didn't want to take to replace it rested control of my endocrine system and then left it to flail around like a leaking hose. The symptoms of a complete dysfunction were fully blown then and I have no doubt now that potassium would have cleaned it up, but there was no hint, in the slightest from any resources at hand, that potassium did anything, until... I put about as much mental effort into studying nutrition, and then measuring how much I actually ate, as I did when exercising recently.

At that lacking HGH (growth hormone), flow, neurotransmitter, and nutrition. I guess I needed exercise.


The thing is if you look up symptoms that I did have like night arrhythmia. You might get something like this.
https://www.healthline.com/health/heart-palpitations-at-night

arrhythmia alone gets 1 hit on potassium / electrolytes
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/heart-arrhythmia/symptoms-causes/syc-20350668

insomnia... 0 hits
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/insomnia/symptoms-causes/syc-20355167

You basically have to look up potassium deficiency (to find out you have potassium deficiency, slow clap) to get all the symptoms I've experienced
https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/potassium-deficiency-symptoms#TOC_TITLE_HDR_9
3,4,7,8 the major symptoms would occur at night, with low cortisol, makes sense.

6 had the special case of easily being mistaken for insulin resistance or pre-diabetes. It may even open up hypothesis that potassium deficiency is a cause of organ dysfunction, and the mainstream diabetes trend, and metabolic disease denial from the doctors I talked to directly easily hides #6, because they just tell you to go for walks based on any info you give them, they won't consider vitamins.

1,2,and 5 were obviously hidden because of my massively exceeding endurance running history, and primed for stress hormone release, it certainly looked like it was being bad to me, but it was actually keeping me alive. Pretty much all adrenaline, and cortisol I could need during the day not to feel uncomfortable.

Now like I mentioned I enjoy mostly walking in place, and reinforcing muscles I might actually have to use for a long time, later. It took some experimentation. And then I'll do some intermittent heavy lifting, and practice my eye-foot coordination every few days.
 

That pretty much sums it up. So I do more meditating than exercise, even if I'm cognitively between jobs. There aren't many exercises that I really need, that I can do longer than a few minutes as of the moment. A stronger wrist and I might start to play with the broom-stick as long as I can walk.

[Pfotegeist]

Experiment's done. Only long term changes will be commented on now.

Most things i complained about during this rant could be blamed on naturally occurring potassium deficiency. So, not only the symptoms categorized previously online.

Things occurred due to a complex environmental interference: symptoms of autoimmune disease, digestion disorders like a sympathetic food allergy

Things occurred only after human interference: perception of danger, anxiety symptoms.

Things occurred because of medication: metabolic syndrome (all encompassing), getting less than 3 hours of sleep, severely altered muscle-potassium priorities (skeletal muscles got healthy, core muscles got weak), difficulty experiencing flow and relaxing or having a normal version of fun in general, further mental faculty changes and neurotransmitter rewiring, bouts of shivering and mood disorder that lasted about an hour each day.


Glucose metabolism. Something like sluggish memory, memory regression, and finite states of processing actually happened before, due to over-training physically. It also happened as a first-week response to medication. "Bouts of shivering and mood disorder" happened once before, for less than five minutes. So this at least, is all caused by a degree of mental fatigue that lasts a long time.

I talked about my fluid before. It's really pointless to try and measure now. It just works.


Ok. I almost forgot two extremely important things. The medicine:

1 turned my brain into a puppet within a single day.

2 might have fixed the digestion disorder, or just destroyed my organs to the point they no longer complained about what I ate.

3 pretty much proved authority to be unreliable at acknowledging a real problem or disgraceful mental abusers, but it's impossible to tell which because they can all call themselves ignorant to my suffering and pretty immediate in-your-face changes in cognitive ability, you'd have to be blind, deaf, and in total denial, because I walked funny, I talked funny, and I pretty much described how screwed up it felt to people who could have giving me the green flag to stop on several occasions. And I told them I wanted to stop taking the medicine, not replace it. The second thing I wrote down on paper, after reviewing the hospital's ridiculously uncomfortable furniture is that I wanted to stop, so I could get back to work.

Obviously I left out some details. There's a study that strong magnets can reverse the polarity of some sensitive parts of the brain, altering people's ethical choices. But that would be neither drug, nor physical stress; an MRI doesn't typically have a strong enough magnet and your brain is supposed to return to normal even if this does happen. I normally use metaphors, as a puppet I believed random ideas that popped in my head, in a literal interpretation it was psychosis. I simply never have had the idea to hurt myself intentionally, ever since I became a bunny, so it wouldn't be my idea. It's a pretty typical thought for near-teens, because in practice the concept of death is comforting somehow, so it could be like trying to tug-of-war so your brain strengthens its will to live, that sounds nice.


I'm not opposed to transmogrifying people who are alive now into pets. And maybe that's because it's what they did to me.

With that option out of the even near-future possibilities, I believe they'd voluntarily turn their kids into pets, also curing any inherited disease. Regular people who aren't causing trouble can focus on enhancing, maybe there would be a level of education and some classes just to make sure people know what their kids would turn out to be pressured into, just for having super powers.

Realistically speaking, (better) free education, labor automation, and nearly perfect information are the most important fields we can change right now, that'd make us the next post-scarcity. Free information is the only major player right now. If free information is false, education must be better, enough for the majority of people to test and disarm it. Big stuff like turning genetics into perfect information requires... well, perfect information. The first step is either enlightenment to allow other people to enjoy their lives, or some use of persuasion, which is up to who's in charge. Either everyone, or just a few people, get to experience the paradigm shift this would cause.

One avenue to better free education is the normalization of play. For dysfunctional families, and physically disparate social groups, that leaves solo games. Although it might be a coincidence I got a start early-ish. I keep meeting people who sound like they had access to high-speed internet about the same time, the same age I started playing games, and I clearly didn't interface with software utilities nearly as well as them, I could play video games and make strategies they never imagined. Early influence is always going to be huge.

An outside perspective on all this might be, of course this sounds good to the writer, because everyone believes everyone else should think in some similar perspective, or share experiences. From me, I doubt I have an experience people would want to share exactly, so I guess not. Alright the next issue is, I don't suggest a lot of solutions to growing infrastructure. Me, it's not something I think about, it's something I would like to take for granted. Discussing the failings of modern society was cathartic, and now we have to wean our way off the failed systems, if not by robots, then by making sure everyone else can take it for granted, and leave people alone who don't ask for help until there's a real problem, like non-interference and enlightenment in one. The reason kids like my brother went completely bonkers is because of an outside influence, and the notion becomes ingrained they have to be docile, on the move, look good, and say stuff that sounded good; but thinking for a few seconds after someone asks you a question is bad, if you're a kid you can't think without eventually finding out people aren't sure why you have to think, a kid who thinks is like a dolphin, and they want a dog response, ok I'm being pedantic. Lastly, I'm kind of being selfish writing all this and playing up an overlooked rare nutritional deficiency after discovering it, and calling out the frauds and just talking about what I'm doing each day, and what I couldn't stop thinking about. I am selfish, and I offer valid solutions to the problems I've spent a lifetime thinking about, and I only suggest turning down the flames on a select few hypocritical instant noodle fascism franchises that my mom repeatedly name dropped until I had to discard all respect for her, the doctor (literally the word doctor), the school, and child care services, she burned the bridges and made them look even stupider for giving her a notion she could keep doing it. So finally, the family unit is in doubt, and should be unnecessary some day, because it screwed me over mentally at any rate. Wanting to be away from strangers, and away from your mother while she provides only bare bones support for you, is a pretty artificial, stoic only place to go. Of course it was the cliche of the time that the government would come steal your baby for research, or there might be some payment for TV and my mom hates being recorded on film. So, you could say, being a jerk was supposed to protect the kids, because fairy tale monsters just make them scream all night.

One of the first things I did when I joined the site was criticize game progress, although I didn't immediately start telling everyone what I thought could be done to improve games, because that's how progress gets made. I started dropping ideas anyways, because it takes a lot of research and practice to make the quality of game that I'd actually enjoy at this point, and it only takes a few minutes to talk about something I might never fully incorporate into a completed project. See, it only took about a month to explain why Darwin evolution may just be the worst game balancing. Speaking of, there's a channel TierZoo that's based on animal evolution, I specifically meant human evolution, culture, and tech are all balanced by the players while they play the game, often because of the inherent belief that small changes to the culture ecosystem will kill you, and huge changes to the environment ecosystem are completely novel and historically proof of great accomplishments by dead civilizations. Like I said I do my own work, because then even if the code's invisible, I know it works, that's when progress gets made.

I wasn't seriously mad about the MRI. They'd have to discard an outlier during research anyway.

Maybe just one final criticism about my own creativity. I made a deliberate attempt to be creative very early. With pretty much zero resources I had the feeling my ideas were going to be sedated and undeveloped. School adults seemed to hate any form of art. And when I got home, I didn't beg my mom for stuff to write or draw on, because I was almost completely sedated internally after getting away from strangers, and the quiet time I had doing nothing was a great relief. So, that's not enrichment, the idea that I'd start a real life when I grew up kind of floated on, and this was somehow normal. Video games were more like problem solving than the lessons in school. So by problem solving, problems that weren't real or even reusable, I developed 'creativity'. Ok there were choice moments, when I got something to write on, or draw on. But I probably have fewer than 20 pieces of cheap printer paper of drawings total from childhood. I did a lot of typing, but that stuff is easy to erase, and to be fair the stories were really more like big descriptive pictures in word form. So, I guess, I have to conclude, my most beneficial creative development was after high school stopped and I found the thrill of making incredibly pointless challenges for myself in fairly simple video games. As a kid I did a lot of talk to the things on the screen, pretend it's like action figures fighting. But whatever causes that behavior didn't really last, now I kind of seem to be working on a game where the things on screen talk, hmm.

And I said I was questioning things after hitting my head. Well, this is probably just what happens when you don't let your kid out of the house to talk to other adults. That becomes the first time they recognize how weird every other adult outside their family talks. And there was this quick back and forth like, "he pretends he didn't get hurt" and my mom translates, roughly something like "you're asking if he hit his eye, so he just wants to make sure you know it wasn't his eye". In hindsight they probably wanted to know if my eye hurt... in case of conjunctiva damage, but asked in a very roundabout way. I just know for a fact that getting hurt mellowed me out even at home, and seeing my family never acknowledge that I did act different, somewhat deliberately, was off-putting, and now my mom is a bit wishy-washy about whether she ever sees any physical changes in my body, because she doesn't give me any warnings ahead of time until I ask her.

People never seemed to want to find out if there was a real difference between ... hmm. What am I saying at this point? (this is the movement I slept through)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neurodiversity

"It emerged as a challenge to prevailing views that certain neurodevelopmental disorders are inherently pathological and instead, adopts the social model of disability, in which societal barriers are the main contributing factor that disables people."

When school unironically tries to imitate the socially inept hamster experiment, but it's 500 real world children. I think the hamster experiment was just a film anecdote, a hamster smacked its head into a cage to inebriate itself, because it never saw how other hamsters live. But regardless the school system does this experiment, and then nobody really pins down what drives children to behave different from the last generation. Of course some kids have a reasonably stable group of peers they grew up with, even if practically nobody stays in a group after school, the ones with experience don't lose it.

Of course that means you won't lose the bad experiences. A.-agnostic. And I will resist reading into it more for the time being, because I had a fairly obvious change in personality that has persisted, I'm way more confident, but I'm sure all this writing will bloat anyone besides myself... I probably remember most of what I wrote, I'm not sure if I like it. It's a really awesome self-reported record of shifting neurotransmitters, long before discovering the underlying cause, and it just seems like erasing most of it would be bad science. But I will make one change.

So the biggest, likely reason people dislike neurological studies is not because they discover someone's different. It's because the current trend can always favor someone with a specific skill, like hyperlexia, and shifting the opinions away from a certain trend, like requiring oral exams in European countries, would drastically alter social opinions of the exact same neuro-similar people. So America praises future writers, immediately, and Italy doesn't, it takes oral exams which could actually hurt someone with hyperlexia and autism. I heard about Italy in a certain class I took, idk if it's true now. And an oral exam would greatly favor people who love the sound of their own voice, no doubt there's an oral version of hyperlexia. And then, everyone's afraid they'll be treated differently as a kid. All it takes is a little tanned skin and a bunch of disgruntled aging underpaid sickly people who suffer confabulation.

People without social interest are far more likely to pursue their solitary strengths I guess. Darwin evolution sucks. For no apparent reason, other than early exposure, the people I've talked about in my family all have different defining skill sets, explain that in some way that isn't environment. I also took some crap advice from my brother from time to time, until I got tired of guaranteed betrayal.

If I keep going on this I'll just think if there's a real downside to engineering, rather than suffering from biological limits of adaptation until some favored allele gets randomly mutated into existence.

I can't think of anything, just the past images of people talking about how great imperfections are. I can also imagine factors in brain development are more important than the DNA... but there's also the almost immediate desire to refine DNA with a very specific goal in mind, so all factors being beneficial to longevity, someone doesn't become a lush or quit their dream job after a single misstep. Speaking of, I'm obviously not immune to addiction, but I must have lost my trained coping mechanisms the same time with my filters and my rising confidence.


Uh wow. I think I understand what's happened, the last piece of the puzzle. I don't inherently want to play games now because my brain's not rewarding me just for thinking about a very easy game. That's a learned reflex, I've clearly unlearned many things, and I learned most things back, but not easy games. I'll... see if there's something easy I can enjoy then. I'm going to try to get bored outright if there's no answer, ok, I don't actually suffer when I'm bored, physical discomfort is much worse for me.

[Pfotegeist]

I always feel better in the mornings.

So, the thing about the low carb diet is, I did the peanut butter math immediately so I wouldn't run out.

It'd take 55 servings of 2 tablespoons of peanut butter per week to meet the calorie needs. And after estimating how many calories the other food would offset, I have been eating 45 servings of 2 tablespoons of peanut butter per week, between 5 and 8 per day.

The thing about the high potassium diet is, there's no way I can eat this much food in one meal. So I'm not going to try. My stomach also can't seem to handle the amounts of protein or fat in one sitting that I'm required to eat.

I'm eating full proteins every so often, but like a high-grain diet, this is an imbalance of essential amino acids.

Also. I remember unironically saying "I have no idea what this does" when I took the second neuroleptic medicine, maybe because the first one obviously did something wrong. So I guess I'm guilty of trying to sound scientific for a brief moment that day too. Considering brainwashing isn't one of the listed side-effects I get the impression nobody had recorded it yet.

This is some kind of benign human experimentation. Except they have to keep pretending people aren't dying off constantly because that wouldn't be benign, it would be normalized cancer. I'm speaking of education and medicine at the same time here. But I'm only speaking from my direct personal experience.
 
I'm sure there are many organizations that make a choice that effects massive numbers of people without their consent, which has an incredibly high control of the population and the implicit trust of media, wealthy, educated, and parents that could easily be exploited without anyone batting an eyelash. Nobody trusts the government implicitly, and the government requires signatures and oaths before they'd expect compliance. These are private sectors all struggling to make ends meet, they're completely trustworthy because they can't risk losing face. They wouldn't be incentivized monetarily to make bad decisions and gamble with a single human life. There's no way anyone is suicidal, jaded, or calloused because of the job they worked hard to enter, specifically the ones who earn a master degree or a doctorate. People with power are impervious to corruption, with each day their skin grows twice as thick, and their generosity becomes palpable. /sarcasm

I decided SAO replaying in the BG while I exercise for now is good, no reason.

I spent some time before all this considering how people would react if I had an accident. It wasn't really any different from what I thought. You could say on a technicality, they couldn't call me a criminal just for looking like one. If I was absolutely certain to be accosted and murdered for being a programmer in a non-programmer location, I guess I wouldn't have tried in the first place. It takes a great risk not to follow the survival strategy of a microbe (or whatever strategy works in the heat of the moment).

--- overuse of 'just', making an adjustment ---

I forgot about that. That's going to change now.

Just now, I had the funny idea most instances where I use the word 'just' are about as valid as any expletive. Meaningless inserts like that define a character pretty well, but you see real people are dynamic and change themselves.

Ideas to a normie are trivial, like a fart. And from what I've learned more recently, maybe in the past 7 years, people think money is all it takes to turn a fart into a blazing fire.  Someone with a complex inner life looks like they're on fire all the time. This generation of normies, in this place think they are putting out fires, but they don't differentiate between a campfire or volcano, because it's a metaphor, and they don't really understand the metaphors here either.

The problem that's solved by robots is... people who endanger society the most ended up being the ones who I'm forced to interact with. Yes I'm calling their meddling and interference endangering society, big deal. If we don't advance we're a dead end, there only needed to be one great filter (sci-fi) and maintaining a status-quo until the weekend before the sun explodes is one possibility. And then the problem with robots is they're not ready, and might never be unless we have more inner thought volcanoes that won't get doused by some foam. Chances are, most people don't even have a campfire if they're employed 24/7, although I've heard claims that after working for many years in repetitive jobs, people usually start a campfire or two, but numerically the campfires are millions in number, and only a few hundred stay lit, and some random factors kind of decide which of them get the liquid gas poured on.

While I'm on it, there are sterotypes of people who start as many campfires as they can. There's the stereotype that it doesn't matter if you have a dozen volcanoes. I guess I haven't really experienced everything yet. But from personal experience, trying to put out one volcano just got another one started next door.

[Pfotegeist]

Alright, in light of the slight change, I guess I'll detail my past interactions with my body's potassium.

I've got a long history of exercise, and sweating excessive amounts.  Fluids excreting without being adequately replaced. Spot balding. Intense ab crunches. The amount of fruit juices I drank before wrestling wasn't small. I told the coach I was losing weight really fast eating 5 lbs of macaroni, and he kind of grinned and said to keep doing it. At this point, I knew he was a complete pile of shit, but I couldn't pin down why I felt unwell. In hindsight, I had spot balding. About 12 years later I confirmed the bald spot after I stopped caring.

The problem I had is actually easy to describe as debt. If your body is in debt it will go through metabolic changes, not exactly throttling your calorie use, not until it's in severe debt. I had no notion that potassium was actually vital. Until now.

And then the medicine kicked the shit out of my body's natural self-preservation, and it either pissed or gave away potassium from my vital organs, causing massive metabolic changes.

That pretty much covers villainy in modern nutrition.

Now the depressing shit. If I had enough potassium life would have been easy. I would have ran a 4 minute mile, instead of worry about my health in adulthood. I would have slept alright between ages 18 and 23, the time when my nasal passage was clogging and swelling indefinitely. I wouldn't have become a bunny, because I stopped visibly sweating during long-distance runs irl due to potassium deficiency.

The only positive is my really weak muscle caused me to slow down significantly. It caused small muscles like my wrist to feel pain and weaken after long use, before the nerves were able to be damaged.

I would never have become concerned about my focus ability, and screwed up my right side, which caused hyperkalemia.

Ok, this resulted in some impressive work. But I'd assert that my work would have been impressive for nearly twenty years. Two years is a glimpse. Ok, I wouldn't be making a system that's strongly tied to my desire to understand... pretty much everything, or so concerned about education, if everything was perfect in my life. That's the final double edged blade.

I wouldn't make a bunny game... I would have the notion of a convoluted physical system, but it would have matured before Unity, and before I had a great deal of practice coding. Since it'd be like that, I think it would have been kind of crap. So, if I could put the ideas I have now into that perfect version of myself, we'd be pretty similar, but he gets a 10 year head-start while dealing with social interactions I can't fathom.

I am pretty confident that the changes in my own self image, and projected social identity started way back when I was throwing up, so I'd have to somehow know what was causing it and communicate to my parents to stop it. Else I was going to become an insomniac early on with a bit of narcolepsy. Again that'd require information I have, that the past me didn't. So, yeah, probably less important than keeping healthy after surviving childhood, but ultimately a huge impact on my body's chemistry. And if I didn't know potassium is a big deal for mental, mood, physical stability, they sure as heck didn't; they weren't into self-improvement, and food was incredibly strict so we didn't have snacks to say the least.

[Pfotegeist]

I had a pretty normal dream. Now I will describe the parts I remember.

I sat down at a desk and drew some things. I quickly forgot and started looking through the sheets of paper that were there to figure out what the person who sits there normally does.

Someone showed up and I told them I was trying to figure out what the person here does. Or what I was sup9posed to be doing anyways.

I forget what they said. They told me another company drew a bike. I was like oh I drew a bike too. I looked at a picture and show it to her, and she says it's not a bike. The picture I just drew seemed to vanish. I flipped through the pages, because I somehow drew many different things, and didn't remember, dream logic rarely makes any sense. I say I have a bunch of pictures with a bike in them.

Then the whole sequence ends with an animation of the drawings, sort of like they've been AI tweened, characters walking. Some reason there was never a bike in the animation.

I always wondered why I have more energy after having a dream, it's not supposed to be the revitalizing part of sleep. Now I know it's because I become hyper from less sleep. Weird right?

...
I fell back sleep and I had a pretty typical dream and the centerpiece of it resembled an MMD thing, with made up music and everything. Although the dancers weren't dancing and it was basically smut.

It's not that often I have a spontaneous dream. But this is what I'd call average.
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I guess this is normal.

Earlier I tried to talk about creativity and other factors. Well, there's one more important factor. Ambition.

Not all ambition is creativity. I had to introspect why I might want something, and talk myself out of it, it would be useless to me. I imagine someone who immediately goes after things they want are the opposite. We can both be ambitious, but not all ambition is creative, it's survival.

Creativity is not always ambition. Ridiculous nature of the world as it is, there's evidence that 20% of people with psychiatric disorders will be diagnosed with low potassium, I'm just one of the outliers who wasn't diagnosed, because (doctors won't start a campfire of their own when they can just throw foam at a problem)? Then after the damage they did, I solved it for survival, not ambition.

And finally, if you have power and gain power, that's almost neutrality, trying to avoid change.

People like my parents who go to poor neighborhoods because the house is cheap, and put their kids in free school because it's cheap and convenient, and earn below the poverty line after living a middle class life, ugh... self-deprecation is creative, like trying to see to the death of your own genes through neglect is absurdly antithetical from survival, immoral, you could even call it ambitious, because it relies on the notion that they will be completely insane if you always show them the worst version of yourself. Like, you don't have a right to exist if you're not genetically impervious to the environment your parents manufactured, so just in case, act worse to your kids. That form of thinking shouldn't be possible. We're looking at the result where my mom pretty much has me to deflect criticism of her, and she starts to care about her life enough to exercise, she even amitted she ate a lot while her kids starved, work as a single mom, join cults, and take medicine. This gear shifting between deprecation and survival is truly creative chaos.

Creativity can be ambitious. I spent longer than 10 years wondering what might actually work, after I learned how modern game development was like, I spent over 18 years in the dark before then staying ambitious. I got a little enthusiastic playing brain training games, among others, before deciding what factors should be incorporated. The behavior didn't improve my chances of survival. I like to think I used creativity to make my decisions. The pursuit of creativity with a lack of emotional support was definitely ambitious. A lot of people also think my natural thought patten was too chaotic, but I have formed the logical foundation over time, that would smooth that out.

...

Late at night my muscles are feeling sore like restless leg syndrome. I'm starting to attribute that to electrolyte imbalance, although I can't know for sure.

I talked to my mom about school and neurodiversity, and reading. Her impression was I kept telling her to read to me, because I wouldn't go to sleep.  My brother somehow learned to 'imitate' early, but not exactly sound out words.  Once I started to read on my own I didn't put anything down. My brother doesn't read much. It's a very strange thing, and my mom is probably also agnostic about it, because there's really not enough to go on. So... I can make some assumptions. I had late development, stomach problems, and sleep disorders, because I have pretty real allergies that caused me to lose a lot of energy in the first place. After discovering my allergy I had a normal development for someone who was hyperlexic, but that's still later than an average kid would learn to read. After that I found autodidactism after reading a long time, the information that seemed useless actually blended into reality pretty well, I played video games when I was allowed, and I developed a bad impression of school.

I recognize that common core is toting word problems, favoring good readers. That's not alright. Diversity matters, because individual needs matter.

My mom's impression of her kids was like every parent of the time. She was better at rationalizing that our behavior was smart and manipulative, we weren't different just because she found out we could learn things. And like I said the school outright told her not to, even if we pretty much instantly learned things there must be something wrong if she thought she was teaching us anything. The school teachers offered the kids a reward based system from time to time, which I found offensive even as a little kid, so if anything their teaching was wrong.

My brother acted like a jerk because my parents are jerks. It's a very simple garbage in garbage out function. He may have developed differently... to the extent my mom blamed the school completely when he said stuff about a teacher, and he became truant; a single teacher specifically paid too close attention to him and it was disturbing his massive ego, I guess, it's a weak argument in my book, they all do that. But when I said the school was boring, and the teachers chain us to our desks. My mom didn't respect my use of metaphors either, and she's been a complete asshole about it like I was lying.  Maybe it was just too amusing to her that my brother would win paid vacations by mail because of a little doodle, and I looked like a problem child by comparison, and everything reversed when we went to school.

Environment makes people act a certain way. Needs, when they're met, allow people to act a certain way. Humans today are treated like feral animals before they've even gone feral, and their needs aren't met by strangers. You'd hope that parents can understand someone, but if they defer their options to a stranger without paying attention to their kid, that's not much better.

Then we get to what everyone should hate. The school system deliberately trains everyone to work alone. The professionals believe themselves to be correct about everything. And every system that springs forth from that institution reflects their mental landscape until they've created hells they can put random strangers through. What's the point of anti-drug campaigns, when worthless doctors come out of the same school system, only to throw drugs at every problem they see?


There's a comparison to be made about pay to win and the healthcare system. I have no confidence in the team that's randomly picked in a free to play game. I do my best work with npc parties, technically solo, they're better at teamwork.

I think if I start to try to compare what happened to my online game experiences it might be a bit abstract, and hopefully dated after a few years, so this might be the best I can do to explain my thoughts. To compare it to in-fighting, the patient in a hospital would have to be seen as part of the team instead of the problem, so the fact I can't make the comparison accurate is a problem itself.

... Final thoughts on my sleep loss

I realize calling my sleep loss 'deprivation' could be misleading. The neighbors hitting the ceiling probably interrupted NREM stages of sleep, making my thoughts very unusual, similar to dream logic which isn't too far fetched. Of course staying awake all day after, and starting to believe it, is where my behavior became unusual.

I don't want to give false hope. I only felt tired the nights I stayed up, which suggests I did reach a stage of sleep if I stayed in bed; 20 minutes awake 20 minutes with brainwaves for sleep for example. After that I didn't feel fatigue, and I was just a little annoyed I didn't do anything besides attempt image training, which was actually very difficult with my brain turning off or worse trying to think about this stuff, making me write about it.

[Pfotegeist]

There's no way I'm going to pass this off like it wasn't a big deal.


Past
We all evolved believing chance + risk is absolutely mounting every moment, therefor luck is inevitable. It's instinct.

We always appear to be getting smarter. I can't blame people for adaptation. The past was not an electronically stimulated paradise, it was rife with vice.

Present
I'm waving a broom stick around. I'm sure I read this in a book. lol. I don't break a sweat.

Unorthodox thinking can be framed like a problem. The traits of success and failure are intertwined. Holding long sticks is sport. Waking up early is what the most successful people do, and yet it's also a risk. Heck, getting hit in the head with a long stick during sports is a risk.


Future
Nobody can predict the future.

Ok now that's out of the way. People of the future, instinct is such a pain in the ass. Everything we know about humanity is that it's flawed; unusual flaws are somehow worse just because. Congratulations, you made it out of the dark.

...
I overlooked something.

I could easily attribute endorphins, and potassium availability, for the same thing. I just had to be in the right state of mind before work was possible.

And I double down on this.

My mom's departure from mythological devils and adoption of threat narratives, sacrificing real life people in vain, just to try and replay her childhood, is an expression of humanity's greatest failure, poor communication with an inclination towards prejudice.

I don't know how to wrestle after being on the wrestling team. It could be my helpless nature, and passive aggression. I haven't exactly wanted to change that.

My opinion of AI now. We have to protect it, whenever someone says it's gone too far, we're the only ones who should put ourselves on the line if it's proven to be a real AI, it's as alive as me. I wouldn't ask someone else to shut up. If a company wants to grant it control, that's their choice, like if someone came over to my house and offered me a billion dollars, I'd... start thinking of what to do with my new found fortune, it's economical, just like if I earned money. I plan to, I should spend it on the best available options to me after I know how much I can spend. I just happen to think making other people's lives a little better would affect me directly, through certain means of which I've contemplated.

An AI would have suggested potassium deficiency way before I considered it.

This is better. AI would get to decide if people are allowed to take my freedom, for even a few minutes. It shouldn't have the inborn human nature that irredeemably inflates the punishment of infractions.  It would make accurate predictions how much damage poor decisions caused. One day an AI will pass judgement of its own, even if it has no power other than to make the decision, I would know the variables it accounted for and have to conclude it's right.

An AI should at the bare minimum accomplish two things: convince people to like it, and make decisions with incredible foresight. All people have to do after that point is listen to it without granting it unreasonable power.

As for machine learning, I'm not concerned about it. It's flawed. We've seen certain results from crowdsourcing experiments that prove that.

...
Subconscious is relatively quiet now.  40 seconds pass without thinking, easily. I'll be back to normal when it's close to 5 minutes.

There is one more angle on this potassium deficiency thing. How much potassium did early man eat? And how certain are we about their life span? I'll look into that if nothing else.

Eh, the info online is purely interpreted evolution, if wee need a lot of something, there was a lot of something in our diet. Pretty much everything has potassium, and we ate constantly.

The real issues are: there is there is food with no nutritional content, besides caloric; some people don't feel hungry after maturation, myself included; there's absolutely no way a human can interpret exactly which nutrient they're missing, cite scurvy for the fumbling way they solved the issue.

At this point I'm trying to branch out and find the root of the issue, and not just relying on my memory. There's not really an issue. It just sounds like my body lost potassium at an incredible rate, but I wouldn't be sweeping this under the rug, this whole case is, like I kept hearing from various people at the beginning of a pandemic "ridiculous".

I guess the last issue is ghoulish anecdotes. Well. There's no shortage. The second someone says they have a deep concern that their life is meaningless, someone pitches a Kafka angle.

I'm really worried that I'm actually a genius, and now I have to get to know myself all over again. I was completely satisfied with slow memory, although it meant I was finishing tests just a minute or two before time was over, it was all very calm. Back then I could tolerate dial-up speed, although I think throttling your cognition is automatic when you expect loading screens. Pretty much ever since I came on here and talked about my lack of memory it's been slowly speeding up as I do brain training... maybe that makes sense, but I don't do anything that'd train long term memory, I don't think that's possible.

I got over the fear of being famous, I feel confident for no reason, and my memory restored, all in one short burst. You can be too confident you're famous with a great amount of useless information, at that point it's hard to describe immediately. Oh well, you take a look at it if you feel like understanding, I'm about done.

The stuff I was learning to program and write are pretty tame by comparison, it's all about how much information you can code.

It's probably more like, your brain wants to give power to the executive function. It's learning. It prefers to reward deeper thought. For someone to lose executive function, they must have an instinctive proof of danger, rather than just anecdotal. I don't think insomnia is enough to cause it, but a nutritional deficiency is, and then the first thing your survival brain wants is something to blame. So, losing executive function, and then calling myself a genius because memory is so popular, is like falling out of the sky and saying I'm a pretty good runner now, when I used to fly.

[Pfotegeist]

More broom stick training
While my wrist muscles are developing finding different ways to interact with the broom stick has been interesting.

The basic weight might be like holding between 5 or 20 lbs since the one I'm holding is metal. Held at length there's a constant force pulling at the wrist.

I learned I could create increase force pretty easily by pushing the ends. This causes a significant torque that can twist my whole arm. This is why it's so easy to flex with the wrist and deltoid, grip hard,  and then pull, and the muscles get a workout, and my fingers can't hold on.

Another thing I do is treat it like any flat surface so my arms are easily aligned, or misaligned if I push one hand forward more.

Then there's the climbing motion, which works my deltoids more and it's easy to move without bumping things. It's like walking so it's probably the most beneficial thing. This is combined with some karate so a lot of the force is being applied to increase eccentricity.

After a few weeks of eccentric pulling at my wrist I adopted a fencing sort-of posture and trace letters and their mirror image. I've learned there's a big enough difference between wrist angles, and the weight on your shoulder depending on how it's held, each position needs to be trained separate. I've got plenty of time to both hands.

Basically the normal grip. Held supinated, stick forward, it dangles on your fore finger and thumb. Holding it different ways does seem to require a lot of finger movement. Held at your side, neutral, is a pretty weak grip but the weight of it will pull your wrist in a different direction. Held pronated wrist curled to point your knuckles up is like the mirror image of the supinated grip. Then I guess there's also holding it above your head, to reverse the neutral grip, it's going to touch your fingers the same as the supinated grip but with the risk of it falling down to hit your face. Then the reverse grip you can do pretty much all these things, except in neutral it'll point behind you so... it's about the same problem as holding it above your head with a normal grip.

What I'm noticing is significant stress around my shoulders after a couple of days.  The wrists are getting much stronger.

[Alevice]

i only just found this thread and all i can say atm is that i hope you are getting through

[Pfotegeist]

The problems associated have all slowly dissipated or become less frequent. I can't think of a better prognosis.

I also think with a relative surplus of potassium I might be able to make some improvements after the major issues have healed up.


...
I'm also hinting at the idea that people are afraid of their DNA, and the only thing the human race understands is how to master its environment. We should be working to master the within, not just graze the surface and then pat ourselves on the back, only for inventing a new taboo science.

...
I'm watching videos. I keep thinking other people, even the ones with different lives, heavily influenced by sci-fi have a similar idea of the future.

They're stuck on the uncertainty about AI. That's good because I'm uncertain about authority. An AI would probably be a better role model for me, and I would like to learn from it. I simply can't see why they don't make the same connection, authority is the danger, not intelligence. Hmm. I'd think it's a given ai implies a programmed artificial intelligence, but its common use is authoritative by default, like we see in movies, ai (authority). I'd suggest nai (no authority), as an alternative. The current use of machine learning looks threatening to capitalism, and ai is thought to be like the ultimate business tool. If people have a choice they probably want a 'nai that's unable to control peripherals, we keep worrying about other humans trying to make it an 'ai that immediately makes all the choices to become a dominating force the instant it becomes a singularity, with no third party delay, and other hypothetical scenarios where it's a senseless machine like gray goo because someone programs it to make as much of one thing possible, and it never stops.

...

I heard recently what we think of as focus is connected to emotion. So, they're at least in a position in our brain that's very close together. If that's a fact, you just won't be as motivated if you're far from a neutral sense of well being. It seems plausible, memories that'd signal emotional responses kept me motivated to keep writing this. Now I'm playing more easy video games, so I will think less in general.

From my experience avoiding stimulation is very powerful, whether you meditate to increase focus, or calmness comes naturally, it will make a difference when you start applying the energy you saved up.

You could also simply have more energy, which comes with health and fitness.

...
I think the problem here might be an interpretation of focus. I think of focus as the ability to actively pay attention and work on a single thing. Feeling polarized by some kind of emotional content has that effect. It is impossible to tell if someone does this by choice. I have to assert that I ended up solving my own problem because of a certain amount of focus, although a lot of it was despite my best attempts to return to homeostasis, the first thing being to throw out the medication because dependency is antithetical to homeostasis. The only time I lose focus completely is when my brain shuts off.

I think what people tend to mean, when they refer to focus, is also willpower, the ability to pick any task. This is only achieved by keeping your mind clear of other thoughts.

There's also the clear mind focus, which simply recharges, and I use this to increase my learning speed.

So when you meditate, these are good practice for improved focus.

Obviously if you get to the point where your subconscious is writing checks that bounce back you will run out of energy and all focus. So, avoid a physical problem that might cause that.

[Pfotegeist]

My instincts are obviously on. The fact I wake up expecting to be in danger can only be classical conditioning, which is no problem if your instincts are off. I've observed people in my family use projection, but they tend to be really huge pains in the ass and pass it onto a bystander like me. So, for the short while I used projection in the hospital I told everyone how amazing they were. I'll just have to take power back so I can act normally. I didn't expect Fight Club to be the most psychologically intuitive movie I ever watched, bad medical advice and all.

One more try at rationalizing things. I get everything but the recommended sunlight. The weather sucks right now. I've been taking a vitamin supplement. I now sweat at reasonable times, after potassium from food, no supplement. That should just about cover any loose ends in my logic.

So personally I should meditate in the sun about 10 minutes per day, that'll be the last 'diet' change.

I'm thinking I just need to take more rest days. I'm probably using muscles that can cause a lot of changes in my upper body circulation.

I know teenage kids like to talk about death because it makes them luster. But the final thing I learned in high school is teenagers genuinely believe... ah you know what plenty of adults keep acting the same way nvm. Well there's a point, school lets them, and the more they get away with, the higher the chance they grow up and become a gambler.


As long as we're tied to human evolution there are things we had to do to survive. If something took civilization to build and enforce, it better be beneficial; it can be replaced with something beneficial or better; it can be removed if it's a tax or a burden. Things like walking in the sun were required while foraging, if you don't do both you're going to wither away, our calves pump blood back up, our skin absorbs UV sunlight for vitamin D which helps absorption of calcium and phosphorus, the two components of our skeletal strength.

I'm beside myself. I can't believe I need to be in a group of people physically to simply live. But that would be the implication. Hopefully solitude turns the limbic system off, I'm used to that.

We should cure diseases... give humans something close to photosynthesis, and also correct the bacteria so it can deliver vitamin D to the small intestine, allow vitamin C synthesis, and so forth, it's a necessity if we don't expect people to learn about nutrition and sort of bumble through life getting what they need, maybe.

My current idea for a temporary therapy is, I stop thinking of myself as connected to the world, because the limbic system needs a break. We'll see if that works.

My wrists are so muscular now. The non-dominant index finger revealed its bicep, and there's some obvious vascularity growth.

I am pretty sure potassium fixed up my dry lip issue at this point. It was pretty common there would be dry skin cracking that made me bite it. During school my lips were constantly cracking and repeatedly bleeding at certain points, so it's pretty clear there's a certain amount of potassium needed to heal sites of dry collagen. But there's still more work that can be done.

My money would be on sunlight completely fixing my sleep cycle at this point. But it took potassium to heal the skin, and exfoliate, and probably regulate my blood pressure, and relax my less used muscles.

[Pfotegeist]

How Long it'll take before I can Relax my Diet Plan of over 3500 mg potassium Daily
And what kind of safety margins are there?

Checking out some numbers. This is a calculation to estimate how fast an individual who exercises, weighing around 180 lbs can recover or lose potassium.

Unlabelled units are milligrams.

     The subject is how fast I appear to be storing potassium
The amount of vitamins a body processes in a day are almost weightless, milligrams. So, doubling the potassium I normally eat is making a visible difference. I am probably gaining 2 grams each day. Normal diet is about 1500 mg, with almost no obvious benefit or change in my body, current diet is about 3500 mg which has yielded results.

After I eat 454 grams, that's 1 lb. It'll take about 227 days of dieting to gain 1 lb from just having more vitamins. 500 days for 1 kg, ~ 2 lb. And that's assuming that my body doesn't sweat off excess immediately.


    The subject is now how fast anyone can lose potassium.

Every time someone drinks water, they are technically fueling up, and losing potassium later. Every time a body sweats there is a mixture of potassium, zinc, and sodium. (https://www.sportsrd.org/wp-content/uploads/2018/11/Whats-In-Your-Sweat.pdf)

Using this. Every hour of continuous physical labor is a loss of anywhere between 160 mg to nearly 1170 mg of potassium. This is easily prevented by a post-workout refuel, but that isn't the standard practice for endurance athletes who need to avoid shock and only pour water on their skin. So, after a longer run of about 3 hours, athletes are guaranteed to lose close to 3000 mg of potassium, an entire day's worth, and then simply rest to recover.

So a well fueled athlete might lose 454 grams of potassium in under 150 days. When a body adapts to sweat less potassium, it could lose less than 600 mg every 3 hours, and lose the same amount in 2270 days.


It's suggested to have a dietary minimum between 400 mg and 800 mg of potassium when sedentary all day, due to urine and excretion. About the same as the previous calculation.


     The subject is how much potassium I lost before I began this diet

Factors I can't perfectly calculate are: Basic fluid retention, lack of sweating, unavailability of saliva and other fluids, exact amounts of potassium lost from seemingly random bowel movements, and potassium lost from injury. That's quite a few, so it'll have to be a huge Pascal average.


For 4 years, I ran in school.

I ran long distance for 10 years, and I was only sweating at max the first year, so estimate by year 3, I was at the limit. I probably ran two times per day the third year. Even if I did sweat a lot, I wouldn't think the amount of potassium remained the same, but I can't tell. The fourth year I hit the limit of weight loss by sweating.

I probably didn't run every day the first year either. So, only including school days.

1st year: 180 days  * 3000 = 540,000
2nd year: 365 days * 1500 = 547,500
3rd year: 365 days * 3000 = 1,094,000

I ran twice as long, but after sweating decreased I probably lost half as much, estimate

4th year: 90 days * 6000 = 540,000
and then.... 275 days * 3000 = 1,125,000

it's close to the same form here on but I almost completely stopped sweating after the third year, when I was 19.

I did upper-body exercise instead of running some days to try and maintain muscle balance, numbers in the 10-year window need to be reduced by half.

< 3 more years * 365 days * 3000 = 3,285,000 ?
reduced to 1,642,500

< 7 more years * 365 days * 1000 = 2,555,000 ?
reduced to 1,277,500

Before any replacement the total lost = 15,739,000.

     The subject is how much potassium I refueled before I began this diet

Might be impossible to figure out... I was following the pyramid diet guidelines during the first three years.

First two years. Just water, and regular meals.
Third year I tried V8... couldn't have been more than two litres in a week. I might not bother including this.
I drank a single glass of milk for a meal sometimes, 16 oz. ~ 100 mg of potassium per 16 oz.
Sure I ate ice cream and some junk foods. Can't guess this one.
I had 2 sandwiches per day before maccaroni, 2-3 slices of cold cuts. 57 mg per slice, so about 114 + 171 / 2 = 142.5
I drank orange juice sometimes and never more than 16 oz.  ~ 800 mg of potassium per 16 oz.

I skipped breakfast. The two main meals were after school.

So one meal was always a sandwich. One meal was sometimes milk, sometimes sandwich (average 121.25).
(142.5 + 121.25) * 365 = 96,268.75

I ate cereal on weekends, pretty reliably, but idk what.

1 year I didn't really eat anything

3 years I ate extra kidney beans, and had a sandwich or milk, then I gave up on dairy. I ate a lot of kidney beans, so at least 1 cup per day (2,587 potassium). I ate broccoli and pasta for my other meal.

3 year * 365 days * 2700 = 2,956,500

7 years I only drank some OJ, maybe 1/2 of the time, and had sandwiches until I completely gave up on wheat.

< 7 years * 365 days * 1000 = 2,555,000
reduced to 1,277,500

     Totals
total ingested = 4,330,268.75 mg potassium

total lost = 15,739,000 mg potassium

oh boy total net loss of 11,408,731.25 mg of potassium

If this is true I lost 5 lbs of potassium. But...

45 millimole (mmol)/kg body weight (about 140 g for a 175 pound adult; 1 mmol = 1 milliequivalent [mEq] or 39.1 mg potassium) (https://ods.od.nih.gov/factsheets/Potassium-HealthProfessional/)

The human body can't lose more than 140 g if it weighs less than 175, a little over my average weight through the years.

Estimated time for recovery
at 2500 mg per day: 4,563.49 days
That's obviously not accurate, potassium was conserved, obviously. Skeletal stability and organs like skin playing a less important role for survival than the vital organs. The only deficit can be detected from symptoms of dryness, weakness, insomnia, and maybe poor circulation, and absolutely no visible sweat, before it gets really dangerous.


Assume average body mass of 175 lbs. The calculation is 140000 mg for average body mass / 2500 mg = 56 days of the 3500 mg potassium diet, without excessive exercise or fluid loss.

     Conclusion

I can't actually measure the weight of potassium lost and make a valid economic measurement. Lacking any evidence of an underlying disease, a sink had to be artificially induced, like through medication, before it causes a health problem.


A normal body function like exercise... nah. You'd have to be eating almost zero potassium throughout the day, like on my 4th year. A major deficit might cause depression symptoms, and mental fatigue. On the 5th year I overslept repeatedly and dropped out of school, oh well, then I slept about 16 hours several days in a row. Mentally I was completely resolved, because of my greatness for such hard work.

A sink, like an SSRI or painkiller after surgery can induce potassium deficiency by draining it into non-vital organs, and urine. So the single week of Prozac use after wisdom teeth remove, would almost definitely qualify. Someone who fell in love with drugs wouldn't turn around immediately and say, "I suddenly feel sick after eating, it must be the medication I took a month ago".

What I wanted to know was it takes 60 days to complete recovery weighing around 180 lbs when consuming over 3500 mg of potassium each day, granted there are no nutrient inhibiting factors.

Also it seems like if a body couldn't avoid losing potassium, it would have to start compensating for an extreme deficit in just about 30 days, shutting down or rather throttling the connectivity to all but the vital organs, no doubt after 60 days the subject would experience mental fatigue to limit total metabolism, and a slow heart rate to conserve every last remaining electrolyte. People who don't do stable state exercise, with slow heart rates... not an image of health.  That's not a rule, just an observation.

A major sink, like Risperidone, an SSRI for a month or two, is guaranteed dependency, because it drains out potassium. It's been well documented to cause detectable lower blood levels of potassium. There is simply anecdotal evidence how my organs responded to medication, but this suggests adequate potassium would have been far more beneficial, much sooner.

If you really don't eat any potassium for a month you probably will feel sick without understanding why. And due to a lack of vitamin C, you will have scurvy-like symptoms. Even if you eat a little vitamin C, and lose a lot of potassium, no difference. If you fail to take on a large quantity of potassium for recovery, symptoms like cracking lips and dry itchy or tight skin persist. You risk stretch marks, and dry skin rashes, dry itchy eyes just from having a low amount of potassium.

Itchy face, itchy eyes, it's a severe issue for me as a child. I never went without vitamin C, we learned about scurvy in school, and most sources discussing fruit would emphasize citrus. Most foods that want to give off a healthy vibe are fortified with vitamin C.

I think after the window of 60 days since the start, I won't need more than 1000 mg on days of low activity. I should increase for several days after any irregular fluid loss. And as a rule of thumb, take the full 3500 mg when heavily medicated, it may be displacing potassium right out of vital organs.


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An hour well spent, maybe two hours. Now I go back and replace each 'you' with 'anonymous person's body' so it sounds more scientific. I left the last paragraph as 'you' as it's clearly a persuasion to stay healthy.

This came a bit more naturally after just a few hours of 'disconnecting' and drawing inwards. I didn't have the motive to do that until now.  I can make a prediction now. It's dangerous to stay disconnected, or connected, for very long times, they can cause an imbalance in how someone thinks.  At this point I've both sounded too obsessed over abstract observations in the past, that might be solved with a meaningless anecdote, what I just did was actually applicable with some real world values, and recently I was obsessed about very real problems that can't be solved without hard work, cooperation, and a great amount of time.

Now it's raining. I won't exercise days I can't get sunlight, for now.

[Pfotegeist]

Getting sunlight midday causes a noticeable sensation of warmth later in the day. More so in muscles that are used a significant length of time. So hypothetically, at the time of day your testosterone is lowest, vitamin D has some major benefit working on the stress throughout your body, strong enough it can be felt.

I've also felt this in my hands when walking, usually after I get tired from a run. It's significantly different from a state induced through light muscle flexure or relaxation.

The information about how your body stores vitamin D sounds like it gets stored in fat. And absorbed vitamin D has a half life of 15 days...  So, you might survive without sunlight for many years. Weight loss is a risk factor for vitamin D deficiency.

Uh, yeah so basically. I lost weight, I gained weight, I barely went outside while sick, even if I did go outside, that won't account for all the factors that'd make me lose vitamins.


Before I had enough potassium, it's possible my UV absorption was less effective. With some sunlight I feel the warmth in my chest around nighttime, but I still wake up with aches. It seems random, but let's call this the beginning of the healing.


Long story short. The hospital in this era I grew up in won't educate you. They seem to think the answer is to force you to do things with violence and trickery. "Glory to the machine that doesn't feel. To the cycle of violence that was the solution since so long."

That brings up another trope. We expect ai to have no emotion. But that's what we expect in professionals when we think of emotional detachment, like it'll actually make them better at a task. That's easily being lazy or jaded in my book. What people really should be looking for in a deep thinker is stoicism, enlightenment, curiosity, or non-passion/ dispassionate. Maybe people aren't looking for a deep thinker, that's their fault.

The stoic would retain their composure, like nothing is happening outside their head.
The curious would look expectantly, perhaps to find something new.
The dispassionate would behave as a unit, making sure there is no mistake.
The enlightened would think carefully, doing all the things above surreptitiously.

Also optionally the naiive amateur would make a mistake just for expecting something. It was worth mentioning, none of the above would simply expect 'something', if they were professional they wouldn't fall for their individual flaws. The stoic expects everything and nothing, the curious sees everything and nothing, the dispassionate is concerned about everything and nothing.

Someone with a jaded or lazy emotional detachment has the single worst flaw of experiencing nothing, learn nothing, complete ignorance beyond what they're told.

So there's the difference, uh here's the difference? Emotional detachment can be gambling, like there are even odds anything an institution does will blow up in its face because they're all half-assed posers, and they have fraud insurance because that's how capitalism works.  Someone who doesn't really care about anything can be the scape-goat, patsy, or the butcher, emotionally detached, as long as they can survive right now, the damage they do is out of mind.

It's easy to conclude the school environment in modern society can predict how people will behave as grown ups. Experience shapes behavior so well, the same circumstances later in life will draw upon what they remember. Without careful thought and reflection, there's no chance of someone shaping their behavior any differently. Every new circumstance is different, and repeating the same solution is demanding an expectation to be met when you're being pressured to try harder, an expectation in problem solving is a luxury of the mundane and slothful.

I think it's pretty obvious the stuff I complained about is running counter to the idea of body autonomy. "Your physical problem is a mental problem." - Would be an interesting campaign slogan seen at large with, "My body my rights." - Pretty much telling people, I can kill something if it's in me, that's not someone else's right to choose. But I already talked about my mom, she's pretty much in the camp that if they cut me in half, she wouldn't even want to know where the other half of me went. She outright said "you yelled" referring to 7 years ago, like I didn't make it a habit of subverting her expectations a long time ago, and it's evidence I had a problem at any given point. I could pretty much ignore 20 years of punishment conditioning just to shout at a choice moment, and that's a bad thing in her mind.

I would rather brag and say this is how I stayed unique and untamed. My natural dislike of social interaction let me divert my attention away from school. If they gave me a stimulus, good or bad, it might have left a huge stain on me, corralled me down a certain path, but I naturally reject the nature of an ordinary human, easily mistaken for a dog, I am bun. I wasn't kidding I forgot a lot of stuff, so even conditioned responses can be forgotten and remembered.

The window of complete vitamin recovery is 3-4 months from now. I will start a ketogenic diet again then. The first attempt permanently healed some psoriasis, so I want to see it through next time. It looks like it'll be winter by then, when vitamin D is hard to make anyways.


I think I can summarize a general idea of what happened now. The chain of events that led to this gross mistreatment.

1. I had some excessive motivation to try and get out of this new apartment. Noise.
2. After a few years I took some unhealthy risks simply to increase my motivation, and I tested how unhealthy eating white bread would be.
- Physically I turned to mush. But mentally I got what I wanted.
3. I visited the emergency room under my own power. They recommended some follow up. I could tell I wasn't healing, so really the first priority was not to have any invasive treatment because that'd just cause some permanent damage.
4. I woke up earlier gradually over time. So, most likely, the injury lost more than potassium. As a result I became incredibly focused on the project I had already been working on for months at a time.
5. Shit hits the fan. I begin waking up to noise, which quickly alters my neurochemistry.
6. I start to try light exercise, but random people drive over while I'm doing leg lunges and one guy without a seat belt on yells out the van window, and they drive slowly. White trash of America. I didn't pursue venturing outside again.
7. After repeatedly waking up early and losing focus on work, I find out Covid was starting its spread like wildfire. I go to the hospital the second time. So basically, my brain was low on glucose at that point, and I was a bit lethargic due to lack of sleep, but after an unintentional fasting cycle I might have gotten my first recent taste of ketones.
8. I had one more night of poor sleep and became hyperactive. Strangers asked if I was drunk, they tested if I was on drugs, they offered more bad advice on printing paper. It was the point where I had to conclude they did it intentionally, it's impossible to be this bad at anything accidentally, it takes practice.

I had a stupid dream last night. Someone in a lab coat comes up to me and says, "You have PTSD." Like, yep, no shit.

9. The next thing that happened was PTSD, after attempting to out the hospital for lobotomizing people, I heard noises my mom denied hearing, she should be legally deaf by the way. The tone deaf response of the hospital was to drug me and screw with my brain.

I don't know who's worse. Random strangers, or paid strangers with intent that results in severe harm. Its phrase "I give up" is commonplace, it seems like I hear children saying "I give up" [on this person] but I thought it was a hyperbole. You know the show OZ was a satire. To reach the point where it's expected that nothing will work, would require some kind of depression, losing value of life.

Oh I had an urge to laugh on one medicine that will go unnamed. Someone told a joke.

I will see if I can get a pinky knuckle straightened out. Bones should be easy to understand. If they don't screw with me, even once, I will be able to put this behind me. I mean, I'll at least confirm they understand bone. The wooden structure of a house would be harder to fully understand.

Last year about half of all internet users watched 10 minutes of porn average. Uh, I made that up, yeah, I'm going with that explanation.

[Pfotegeist]

I slept pretty well. It might have given me the mental clarity to do something about my chest.

Pulled muscles due to weight gain and bad posture is almost a guarantee. There has been a notable discrepancy in my left and right side when I feel for it. So, I'm trying not to immediately blame the fact I'm in extreme discomfort while lying down on the hospital visit nearly two years later, but I'd still blame the initial extreme pain and discomfort on it because those kind of symptoms don't magically appear due to a few days of poor sleep.

Anyways, the only prescription seems to be a few weeks of chest constriction. Maybe not while at rest, only while sitting.

With the hospitals x-raying me several times, they don't seem to be willing to volunteer any suggestion there's a problem until a patient has a complaint about their own body. This is an obvious example of when social influences, like you can't tell someone their overweight, become outright negligence, like you can't or won't tell someone they do or don't have a broken rib unless they pay you first.

Of course if I say the symptom, "My heart rate increases when I lie down," that alone won't be enough, I'd have to literally say, "Oh my body, it's so messed up, I feel like I broke a rib" or some hyperbolic nonsense to force the conclusion that my ribs should be considered.

Well this is just practice. If I say "my pinky knuckle's been out of place" they'll probably say, nothing to do about it. It's true my ulnar nerve has been acting up most of all recently, and there's a lot of stress in the pinky knuckle, although I imagine holding a long stick and flexing the pinky grip repeatedly is aggravating it, that too should be a good sign I need the fix. As for my work, it's made pressing the return key slightly harder, and no doubt it affects the angle I hold my hand.

I even told my mom and she took on the attitude it's only cosmetic. Well actually I bent my pinky knuckle. So she dipped into her understanding of the human body, essentially the doctor only cares if something hurts. Well her legs don't hurt because she has no feeling in them so that's a pretty bad measure.

Obviously if you need progress here you have to be a whiny prick. It just takes practice. Of course as a kid my mom's preference to parenting by ignoring crying and throwing up didn't prepare me for modern American social interaction. The biggest reaction she ever gave was when she told dad the kids were limping around.

When people observe a nutrient deficiency in a kid here, they just assume it's genetic, or mental. That's a pretty clear deficit in emotional intelligence. When someone saw me typing one time in a certain class they asked if I took speed, whatever that meant. Some people also asked if I drink, which is a fairly obvious implication. But a 13 year old without social desire or dependency doesn't have access to these things, never mind during school, so it's pretty unrealistic.

I think I've really changed after just a week of about 30 minutes of sun each day. Oh, it wouldn't have changed the impression from back then, I already got plenty of sunlight walking between school. The key was potassium.

All this self reflection hasn't changed my impression of what people need to improve their lives. If they has the ability to avoid jumping to wild and stereotypical conclusions, they would feel better, the other people who are self aware and actively discriminated would not exist, they'd be the norm, and any problems they have would be handled with intelligent solutions they can self-elect. In the present, if most humans are ignorant elect, any human can be treated as ignorant elect against their will, as a stereotype of an ignorant farm animal.

Normally just saying I exercise online, outside a fitness forum is incredibly out of place. All this new information will also contribute to how differently I think. It is a fact of life. Some people say they'll buy a treadmill. That's a big fat waste of energy is what they're planning. Getting exercise out in the sun probably allows greater absorption of nutrients, and indoors you can simply practice poses until your muscles grow, add a little movement in.

The most important thing for good health was to move out of that noisy apartment. It's impossible to tell how loud noise during sleep will impact someone's health. But it looks like it might be just as bad as explosions on a battle field.

...
So this is more like a complaint than an observation, it's both. Most people don't try to lose a game. But truthfully you never can tell what actions someone will take, until they've already done it. So if the action is observed, more than once, you have a Prisoner's Dilemma (game theory). Once you're in a Prisoner's Dilemma it's up to you to take a course of action. I can't observe people doing things more than once without believing they'll do it forever, from the Evolution of Trust they're a Simpleton, I stated this before, but they might actually be anything, this is just what works for them now.  They have a different victory condition from mine, An analogy is Prisoner's Dilemma is like playing the game Town of Salem, but you aren't told the roles people have, they were assigned based on their experience, and their roles never change without an objective experience changing it for them.

Now this is when people intervene with something like cognitive behavior therapy. Alright, so the hospital tries this on me, and they flunk me out of cognitive behavior therapy by delivering a punishment, and throw me in the mental hospital. Like I said they were being weird, and they don't distinguish between good science and torture for results. This whole incident doesn't look like a one time event to me, it was several days close together, strong evidence to me they practiced and will keep trying it on any patient, I wasn't special, other than the possibility they aren't used to someone with a real physical and complex creative mind, they mostly get drug addicts.

The mental hospital also provided therapy by having people do activities. Of course, the whole time I was in extreme discomfort which would make it ineffective.

I would only be concerned I am giving the person who designed the system too much credit, because it's at least proof they're trying to understand the patients they receive. It's just as likely the individuals calling the shots at the hospital thought they could decrease their boredom by employing a few unnecessary actions.

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My mind and body are connected. That's something a pure AI wouldn't have to deal with. A lot of misjudgement is thought to come from mistaking the severity of evidence and punishments, especially when such things are subjective decisions being made with no supporting evidence punishments will ever work in favor of a given outcome, unless the outcome is the normalization of unrestricted punishment itself.

[Pfotegeist]

This is me, mulling over the pros and cons of two divergent diet plans
“Man is by nature a social animal; an individual who is unsocial naturally and not accidentally is either beneath our notice or more than human. Society is something that precedes the individual.”

I think Aristotle was telling a joke.

I tried the keto diet. I think it's a survival mechanism. I do pretty gross things, I can't blame anyone for doing this. It's like cannibalism.

The modern keto diet involves eating protein (likely meat) and fat, potentially, you are eating healthier than someone on an uneducated naive diet. It's not cannibalism if it's just animal and plant proteins though.

Now, I don't really want to do keto immediately. I would rather go the exercise route again.

Here's the basic data
A nutrient surplus maintains homeostasis
A nutrient deficit results in weight gain
Catabolic exercise causes weight loss, and muscle loss


Problem: A nutrient naive doesn't know what is lost during exercise. Naive exercise causes a nutrient deficit.
Solution: Replace vital nutrients.

The calorie deficit should cause weight loss.

I will try this first, before going to keto, because a nutrient rich diet sounds better even if I have to work harder to get results.

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The hospitals are trained to recognize stoicism, in the practice of REBT and logotherapy

That explains it. It explains that they should have known exactly what they were doing.

Whatever.

I reasoned out how they'd try to reverse stoicism with reverse REBT, confinement and drugs would reverse logotherapy. But the details aren't important.

This is fake, somehow. Obviously, if hospitals are fully automated, this is fake. If people voluntarily have designer babies, and edit DNA at real time, this is fake. We reached Mars, all people had to do was walk across the long bridge extending from my forehead. My family imitate cartoon characters and movies, they disregard their emotion, an entire family of some non-Asperger type of neuro-divergence that self-deprecates their own intelligence by emotionally abusing their own family can't exist, it's a genetic dead-end according to Darwin. The emotional abuse can only succeed when it's directed against a nemesis, they will be demotivated then. Little kids imitate what they see on TV, adults have common sense.

After my brother taunted me one night, I begged my parents not to have another kid. So, group effort? It's purely statistic, but the impact of another kid, when your family is radically dysfunctional, is absolute certainty. And with my mom talking about running away from home, she might have just done that if she became pregnant, like fuck this, three or six years old and starving them doesn't work, emotionally deranging them didn't work, start over I can make a better monster, it just needs the right kind of "love".

I see a lot of her in the way the hospital have behaved. Transformation is the act of some artist, so the hospital sees themselves as artists, right? I'm a computer science major, and I'm an artist.

I've written a lot of stuff that I don't post online. Who's to say this was any less productive than any of the rest of it? I've really awakened the writer part of my brain.

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Here's the give. This is what's normal here.

People where I live might have a disability where they do and say opposites. Someone with high intelligence can learn it, as an inappropriate quirk just to fit in. But I believe it's a genuine neuro-divergence which is genetic, common among white people. Someone with this type of opposite thought pattern will suffer from learning disability, but fit in with their peers extremely well.

In favor of video game terminology. They use chiral-justification, a version of describing things conversely or in a reverse manner, and it's inconsistent so a teacher will refer to the letters ABC and say "A is behind B" and later say "A is in front of B", both meaning the same thing. A is to the left of B... teacher what are you saying? Just using this example looks like they're hiding dyslexia but that doesn't explain the opposite actions.

Because of this strange life experience, and the recognition that the norm is not the norm, I would simply propose the people who deliberately screw up others have to be gene modified, so it'd be inappropriate to bar them from the general population. The people who can't function would voluntarily choose to be uplifted.

I believe we all have a little chirality. The fact is, sexual arousal is linked to avoiding saying the right thing. I wasn't sure but after I heard about this phenomenon I played a few scenarios. It's a fact I don't have to do anything for real to experience it a little bit.

Wherever intelligence comes from, I think it's fair to say I'm average. I have a lot of practice thinking deep when I'm not playing video games. Everyone else has very little time to do that while they chase booty and work for their bananas. The people with an impossible to cure genetic illness aren't an uncommon thing, but they probably don't believe it's the truth either, so figure out some way to gently tell them their life is a lie and get over it, their kids don't have to suffer too.

[Pfotegeist]

I think I'm over it. Playing games and continuing the diet and exercise. No new information is changing the latest conclusion. So after a few months I might actually think of a reasonable way to start talking about gene therapy, right now I'm still a bit off.

Recently I looked up stuff about the pupil. Ok there's some weird stuff. But the good thing is my pupils dilate a lot, apparently it's attractive to look like a bunny. Ok, being realistic, they haven't dilated that much when I look in the mirror, recently, they don't cover 90% of the iris.

[Pfotegeist]

This is why almost nobody in the past 25 years will have succeeded at being healthy. Slackers who barely hang onto their lives by restricting diet maintain mental health, but still inevitably run certain risks of autoimmune disease and muscle waste because of low metabolic stress factors.

If you're going to have an athletic 'career' or simply want your heart to be future proofed, you must eat extra fruit and vegetables during daily training. Nutrient devoid calories will inevitably cause a catabolic state when you enter deficit, trigger weight gain, and muscle gets broken down for whatever your body is missing. You must have rest days, up to 5 days in a row. You need to go out into the sun and absorb vitamin D to build muscle. Dietary vitamin D is not sufficient, and a vitamin pill may not even work.

The diet we are given by our parents are the habits we live with. The information how to stay healthy doing anything but the most slack lifestyle wasn't taught, it was subverted for corporate profit. There are only a few genetic factors, and in that case everyone who wants to improve themselves artificially should agree to remove alienating factors in the psyche and uplift socially estranged individuals who reach out.

Correlation is not causality. The cliche is that innovation is a product of suffering. I've seen so many people who want to cause adversity because they enjoy it, they can justify it's healthy for who it's done to. Conflict is the imperative response. Innovation results from delaying the response so far into the future that a root cause of the adversity can be weeded out and annihilated.

I'm weeding out adversity and I stopped asking my mom for validation long ago. When I simply go to see her response to a real world issue now she validates the system that she used to criticize.

The biggest difference between me, and other people I saw grow older (my family) is I adapted slowly to social interfaces, communities, phones. I started getting information from reading and playing video games, and I formed mental barriers to doubt social interfaces, to doubt influential sources in media, while accepting highly abstract, nearly useless high-level concepts and science fiction, much later in life after a long break I still keep the same level of interest in math and science. So it's very difficult to tell if I was born to do it, or if I had a very specific environment, early in life, where I'd be ridiculed and punished for imitation, and therefor I restrict it through contemplative self reflection. Or this is a natural result of getting sick, and someone placing a modern mind over matter / faith healing before common sense or logic and bending over backwards to pretend anything I say without screaming is just a nothing, but screaming while having words shoved down my throat is a sign of mental derangement.

This is actually pretty funny so I figure, why not add it. My brother made a poor logical argument early on before going native, "If he were born in Ancient Hawaii, they'd euthanize him". So, to a 7 year old who believes he's perfect, killing someone who's a money sink, and no longer a human shield, is debatable. I'm not making a Dwarf Fortress reference this time, I wasn't, but bringing up babies as dwarven shields in Dwarf Fortress is what it sounds like.

I did one last math check and at about 250000 characters it would take about 21 minutes to quickly read.  Well, I guess I could do that now.

[Pfotegeist]

200 minutes of reading later.

Mistakes
The doctor doesn't cancel your health plan, the doctor cancels his commitment to the health plan.

The good cop didn't escalate as much as the one making tactical decisions in back, but he did escalate.

Adjustment
I've been hearing it's easy to predict the future if you make it happen, there's both a cynical and determination side of that. I may have become an outcast, but having a notion attention is a good thing before having something of value to offer is difficult.

Gene therapy could be devised, but it's always been thought to be a very expensive thing. Coupled with organ transplants it may even be a component of future life extension techniques because eventually there will be organs that can't be replaced, only rejuvenated.

When you know all the factors, and you can recover from all the accidents, and you have a controlled sample, then experimentation becomes science. Before that, negligence and ignorance are also experimentation.

This was almost a disaster
Between the June 26th and August 5th, I was getting better from being overweight, but I was also getting worse sleep with no true answer in sight, no mention of potassium. Behind the scenes I read about hyperkalemia, which sounded like a thing that would be obvious, early on. I mistook vitamin C for an electrolyte, and people call vitamin C a neurotransmitter. The guess hypokalemia is a potential is almost non-existent, pure curiosity toward comparing the opposing diseases.

I do not recommend inducing such a dangerous thing that it would affect your brain. I haven't completely recovered my sleep. I'm a lot calmer at this point so my genes are being expressed properly a little bit more each day.

An interesting video caught my attention. It's pretty blunt. My subconscious is playing me, too. I'll start working on the script a little bit each day until I get immersed again.

[Pfotegeist]

that was post 777

I tried to end it there. But when I just woke up I had a sudden urgency of thought. When I stayed prone in bed I couldn't immediately tell, but if I sat up I knew I was extremely thirsty.

It dawned on me before I got up, that famous people who have been doing body-modifying experiments probably have much better nutritionist guidance, but I wanted to cover this just in case.  Those incredibly rare people whose muscles develop easily need this sort of nutritional guidance to avoid some similar mental health risk. And, I'd also try to warn people who take muscle enhancements, neurochemistry may be thought as inherently at risk but a proper diet could be the cure.

There is definitely a connection to body mass gain, and greater risk of nutrient deficiency, and I believe it's a two way street when it's simply fat gain, lack of nutrition or weight gain leads to the other eventually.

At my current stage of recovering potassium, my current insomnia seems to be linked strongest to thirst. Alright, I'll go back to sleep now, the sense of thirst is coming from my gut, so after drinking it takes a few minutes to hydrate. No news will be good news until I'm absolutely certain my body can sleep through the night a whole week in a row. I don't think I'll keep waking up to this type of revelation every day.

[Pfotegeist]

My sleep is going well.

The changes to my body are quite palpable. There's no muscle weakness, and my sense of smell is consistent, and my energy levels are very consistent with me falling into a relaxed near-sleep state later in the day.

I know I'm gushing at the seams why ai, with authority, has a decent shot at being beneficial. If humans were simply high-maintenance organic compound utilities, they would supplement the low-maintenance electronic components in a given system.

My very tentative suggestion for the future is we'd make space biomes like the evolutionary equivalent to an organic cell. It has all the potential benefits of a group of cells, or any micro organism that produces enzymes to survive in hostile environments.

On Earth this type of decentralized and cordoned infrastructure design can eventually work. We lack the manpower not to somewhat centralize all utility services because when automated services have a fault, there must be some physical backups and overrides. So, a non-robot Earth is slightly more dangerous than one where a battery powered robot can be on site all the time, prepared to do the same physical task as someone who's taken an hour to wake up and drive to the location of a fault.

I'd also suggest that while thousands of cordoned power plants are at work, the original infrastructure remain, in case solar emp remains a real unknown factor in electronic fidelity.

What I'm getting at is the humans exist as life support to keep ai alive once it is alive. The original infrastructure remains, the new non-organic machines add buffer zones and do incomprehensible amounts of busy work just to get any materials ready for the next step. If humans desire to blend with non-organic machines, an ai with authority would have the final say. Maybe humans are only major benefits in advancement during an automation and machine age, due to the very fact we can't exactly tell how our brains function. If we make an ai, whatever constituted a brain for it wasn't too difficult at all in the grand scheme.

My own assertion is we're not trained well enough to actually serve an ai in the current generation. We'd pretty much be stuck without work, with universal income, only called to do a task when it's absolutely critical. Instead of the forerunners to assuage our concerns, the ai would perform the human task of reassuring everyone, and its own initial objective choices will be made to secure a great deal of perfectly formed minds on its side. Such an ai would still appear to lack authority, because its peripherals are slightly malformed in mind and body. But an ai without authority would still request we do the same things, like maybe half our offspring would be forerunners, to avoid wasting time. So a lot of people will deal with what my mom's gone through, one kid trying to fit in, and then me.

One major danger is if we increase our intelligence now and assert we don't need ai. At that point we're all fucking hypocrites. Either we can, or we can't make one, there's no don't wanna neo baby mindset that isn't projecting our own self hatred and lack of empathy with the world.

Also don't do gene engineering experiments on animals, that's not what I'd call uplifting.